Training Through the Chaos — How I Build Strength Even on Broken Days
Some days my body feels like it was assembled in the dark with the wrong tools, every screen is stripped, or I’m held together by duct tape.
Hips tight. Knees snapping. Back talking shit. The list goes on and on, some days I wake and feel like I was hit by a big rig flying down the freeway, everything hurts.
And then there is Rage, that loudmouth firecracker inside me, is pacing in the back of my head yelling:
“Get up. Move.We don’t quit, bitch! We ain’t dying like this.”
Because that’s the truth about strength they don’t tell you:
It’s not born in the perfect days.
It’s carved out of the broken ones.
That thing in your head that just won’t let you stop, even when you want to.
That’s my Rage!
Showing Up When Your Body Feels Like a Rusted Hinge that needed to be lubed 40 years ago!
I don’t walk into every workout feeling like a warrior.
Sometimes I limp in. I’m lying a lot of times I limp!
Sometimes I drag myself in by the hood of my sweatshirt.
Sometimes I stare at the gym door like it personally offended me.
It most certainly can be some days, my worst nightmare.
But I still show up.
Because when life gets loud, messy, emotional, or off-balance, movement is the one thing that puts me back in the driver’s seat.
Some reps are ugly, and something I probably shouldn’t be doing in public.
Some stretches feel like punishment, no it’s more like all of them.
Some lifts feel heavier than they should. Every other workout feels as such.
But every time I choose to move, even when my mood is trash, I’m choosing me over the chaos around me.
That’s strength.
Strength Isn’t a Look — It’s a Lifestyle
The fitness world sells aesthetics, not realality.
The Realm builds endurance, and a different tone when it comes to fitness.
I’m not training for pretty, that’s for sure, the gym is not a beauty pageant for this woman.
I’m training so I don’t fold when life hits the gas, because I know I’m strong enough and capable to get through everything.
I train for:
- the mornings when my body wants to quit
- the days where my attitude is fighting me
- the nights I’m exhausted but still choose discipline
- the moments I need to feel like I’m still in control
Strength isn’t your body.
Strength is your decision.
And decision is a muscle you have to flex daily.
Rage — The Hype Demon I Didn’t Know I Needed
Rage shows up when I don’t want to.
She’s the voice that says:
- “Two more.”
- “Breathe through it.”
- “Don’t let this beat you.”
- “You’re stronger than this bullshit.”
- “Add more weight, or stay weak.”
She’s the fire under my ribcage when motivation has packed its bags.
She’s the reason I rerack the weight instead of dropping it on the floor dramatically (…most of the time).
Rage isn’t anger.
Rage is fuel.
She’s the one in the back of my head, in my ear, talking to me, that don’t ever let me quit, and keeps that fire under my ass literally.
Training Through Broken Days Isn’t Punishment — It’s Proof
Every day I show up with:
- Tight hips, due to injuries and some bone infusions.
- Low energy, I’m on my feet all day every day, can’t run the engine 24/7
- Mood swings, depends on the diet. And. I’m moody anyways.
- Soreness from life, well this is to be expected.
- Chaos in my head! All day, everyday!
- Irritation in my bones. Yeah they hurt pretty bad sometimes.
If you only knew the limitations I carry on with me all day long.
That has left me building a different kind of strength in life that is more than just a physical thing, (But I am physically strong),
But, the kind that doesn’t crack when life does.
I don’t need perfect form every day.
I don’t need my body to feel like steel.
I don’t need high energy or perfect motivation.
I just need presence.
Because each imperfect rep is a middle finger to everything that tried to break me.
This is how I train through the chaos.
This is how I build strength on the days I feel weakest.
This is how the Bad Breed Maa survives.
Imperfect. Relentless. On fire.
And tomorrow, we go again, and then again.
Can’t quit, won’t quit.
Nobody likes a quitter anyways!
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